It’s sounds so cliché, yet it is so true. The time has just flown by. I can’t believe my little boy, my baby, the last one, is going to kindergarten. I’ve done this before….I’ve sent a child off to school for the first time. And although some of the fears I had the first time around are not as prominent as they were, the emotions of the milestone are still there.
It was only a few years ago that he was the little brother in the pictures on his sister Cassie’s first day of kindergarten.
My Connor, my sweet brown eyed boy, the baby who loved to be swaddled, the one who I carried around as a toddler, far longer than he needed to be carried (he let me, I think he knew I needed him to stay little, just a little longer). My silly, kind boy who is always there to help a friend or to encourage a peer who is feeling shy, or scared to try something new. My boy who sometimes gets frustrated when he is explaining something and others don’t seem to understand. He’s ready, he’s excited, and I find as the day approaches I am less concerned about how fast he identifies his numbers, letters, colors, and shapes, and more focused on my sincere hope that his teacher, whoever they may be, will see and love the traits that make my boy unique and special, that Connor will make great friendships, and be a friend to those who are having a difficult time with the adjustment, that he will have fun at school, and look forward to going each morning and return home with a smile on his face.
It’s a big milestone for sure. For parents and kids, there may be tears (most likely from me), and sadness that he’s really growing up. But there is also so much look forward to in the years to come. So, I will carefully choose the first day outfit, pack the lunch with a special treat and note, gather the suggested supplies and lay out the backpack. I will be sure to have my dark sunglasses on to hide my tears and I will take his hand and walk him the bus stop. I will watch his little feet step up that big step and look to be sure he finds a seat and I will smile and wave. I won’t forget the day just as I have not forgotten how I felt the first time I saw him.
Connor, Con Man, Con Con, My Connor, Mama loves you so much have a great day Big Kindergartner!!!
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– Kelly C. Ryan, LMSW, Postpartum Adjustment Coordinator